love is a very tricky game.
the heart is a fragile thing.
its hard when you don't know the right words for how you feel.
even the bad ones.
its hard to decide which to follow.
your heart, or your head.
i definitely do not know...
but be that as it may, I still love you Colin.
I always will.

happy Dec. 1st!

fuck. I hate school.

I hope it pays offffffffffffff.

i cant write a research paper to save my life.

beep boop beep bap

numb.

I turned 21 on saturday :D

I'm doing pretty good in school without trying too too hard... tehe.
& I got a new job as another funky haired book worm.
Hi, I'm Clementine Lauren, can I help you? haha ok, off to work
<3

too much homework. i cant sit still long enough!
im lonely~ colins new job makes him tired by like 9 PM!

i feel reeeaally tiny & insignificant sometimes.

but [hopefully] once school is over, and i am a real social worker i wont feel so tiny anymore. "i have a lot of love to give" but til then, im gonna keep trying to stay sane o.0
goooood night

colin wrote me a poem~ ahem

I love my lorin, cause shes not borin
with all my hearts, even if she farts
my dear pfaffs, you fill me with laughs
leave you i'd never, i'll love you forever



*blushes & turns away*

i. am. a. screw-up. or at least that's how you make me feel...

hurray. ive made it to another wednesday morning. i always looked forward to wednesdays at science & surplus cuz i LOVed to work on freight. hahaha. cuz im compulssive.
aaaaaah wake & bake. i love it, i dont do it enough.
hurray for my new room. it makes me uber happy. thats what its supposed to do tho. good job lauren, cuz yer compulssive!
haha a compulssive stoner. i dont make any sense.

tehe ramblerambleramble. livejournal.
look at Mittens go! shes so awesome~ 

a bien, au revoir mes jolies.
je t'adore.

ow.
rollover.

my kitten is wonderful!

i'm not bad myself.

my new kitteh is on its way!!!

I've never had my own pet before!
I dunno what to name it~

weird...im about to go to my grandpas funeral. i kind of resented the old man, everyone is gonna be crying their eyes out. im playing my violin while my mum & aunt 'bring up the gifts'. i hate funerals. i hate traditional, religious ceremonies. this is gonna be long, awkward and possibly very uncomfortable.

have a great day :)

laying outside on this awesome sunny afternoon.
music is playing, leaves dancing in the wind, some herb burning.

tehe hopefully tonight is gonna be fun. matt & alex = funtimes

work tomorrow and off sunday.
registering for classes wednesday! yay!
cory & adams wedding! then CALI soon!!
should be a great summer... i feel like i earned it!
enjoy~

i just did something that you do NOT want to EVER do~
i locked myself out of my room.

in my towel.

tehe, yeah. embarrasing.
have a good day    XD

i'm really good at being invisible.
and being a stoner.
i can't wait to get OUT OF wHITEwATER!!~

good night. ily.

aah!
still glowing from saturday night.
cant wait to get my pics back!

I have been left to cry all by myself
i have been lied to
and i have been forgotten

i hate college.

is there anybody out there?